Why this Pain??

I'm in deep pain and hurt.How can I explain the pain which kills me daily,each seconds,each minutes and each day.The pain is getting bigger and growing in me daily.Why do i need to do this?? Why must i meet u in my life? Why you came into my life ??Its all started when i start liking u because of pithy..I should not do that!
How am i going to face the society and my family? Everything is my fault and I know i can't fix things now.Its too late for everything.I am moving on no matter what.Please forgive me

Why should i fall in love and suffer like this.Why so much of pains in life?I wish life will be easier if i just end my life but I need to be there for my family!! I need to be strong enough to overcome this pains!! I'm too complicated!!! Even i don't know what i need in my life..Argghhh! I don't know what im writing here too..Life plsssss be good to me!