~My dream man~

A long long time ago when I was still single, I dreamed of the perfect partner for me. I was not very picky. I had the belief that one day I would meet him. At the time, when I saw someone new in my life, I'd think "Is this the one?" but I usually knew the answer. NO! At one point, I had a broken heart in a short period of time and decide to focus on what I WANTED not on what I got.

I placed all the qualities I wanted in my dream man like honest, loving, fun, caring and so on. I had tons and was very specific. I think the only thing I didn't add was for him to have a great job and have an abundant income (but then I never thought about money like that...I believed in love).I found my life tail spinning for a while and decided I needed a drastic change so I start avoiding guys in my life. I had enough of men and didn't even want to think about any of them.At times i wonder why am i being liked by guys,well I'm not that super hot or beautiful.People think its cool to have so many admirers and its nice to be proposed by many guys..Gosh for me it's a headache.I don't wish to be chased by many.I only want a particular guy who I love to chase me.That's the happiness I'm seeking. Finally,I locked my heart and stop thinking about this love issues and start hating life so much.I felt the pain of been cheated and destroyed. I just wanted to have fun in life. Within 4 months of moving on, I met my dream man. We had an earth moving connection through facebook since then.

The odd thing was, he looked exactly like the guy in my dream collage.When i told this to my friends,they laughed at me.But they knew something will happen between us. At first I have no idea I will fall for him but I felt something deep within me that he was the one,the right one.My heart beats each time I met him,each time i talk to him and each time i look at his pictures.I asked my friend what is that suppose to mean.I remember she knock my head and said ''It's love la u stupid girl'

I decided to take my own decision without listening to others. I start listening to what my heart says even when it got hard. I trusted my instincts.I decided to be with him no matter what and only him. Every day, every minute, and every moment I miss him. The distance may be hard, but that will never change how I feel for you. I love you no matter what.

All I can say is trust your heart but never devalue yourself or accept an abusive relationship. Sometimes it's the letting go that brings us what we truly seek.If I was not brave enough to walk away from hell and start back my own life,I wonder will I ever meet him? When I rewind to the past all my tears and pains worth after looking at this angel. It had been paid with lots of love and happiness :) I remember one useless guy called me ''chappeh figure'' which means very moderate girl when i rejected his love.But now,i can only smile proudly for having an awesome man with me :)
I can't wait to start my life with him.A house filled with happiness and joy.Life with my in laws and of coz with a man who I want to live for a life long.My Kannan~

Anyway,past is past and I'm happily moving into my future.My aim is to finish my degree and start doing Master for better qualification and then start working.Bring mum and Patrick for holidays,start saving money,not to forget fall in love crazily,deeply and blindly with him till the end and get married,have kids and there i go..a perfect wife and mum.As i always mention..my life is very simple in my way :)